Tuesday, January 31, 2012


The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies never come to an end
They are new every morning
New every morning
Great is thy faithfulness O Lord
Great is thy faithfulness

It seems I have a lot to blog about these days. But it is in these past few days that the words of this song have become so real to me.

How after suffering in silence for 9 months, the Lord gave me an issue as a way out.
How in my darkest times, I had people to pray for me and with me.
How there were people who stood their ground with me, even though we were the minority.
How Dada could come all the way to strengthen me when I was literally hiding in fear.
How I was let go by employers who waited so long to get me.
How I got a decision in days, that normally took months.
How I was reposted on grounds of mental torture alone, when people couldn't think of doing so even after physical harrassment.
How I found the best movers and packers in a village!
How I was sent to a place which was the next best thing to home.
How when I had to leave, I had friends close by I could stay with..
How even as I settle in, its as if God tailor made the new place according to my needs.
How in my fears and apprehension, God speaks.... And I know he walks with me.... Working ALL things for good.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Lessons from Rjn

I stare across the empty room. The packers n movers have just removed most of my stuff and the only thing left in my once full room are packed suitcases that Dada and me will be carrying on the train tonight. And I can't help wonder "Lord what did I do wrong?"
9 months ago I came here with all the energy and the vigor of a fresh graduate ready to change the world. And then it happened... the world... I learnt a lot of lessons... And I learnt them the hard way.
The mission field, though desperately in need of me, is not as welcoming as I think it should be. The people, though wanting my services, don't necessarily want me. The majority is always right and I am always the minority. The politics, despite your hardest attempts to run away, will always catch up and bite you in the ass. etc etc etc....
BUT I also learnt that I am of more value than sparrows....
For that I am thankful that he who has promised is faithful.
I am thankful for the people I met who gave me a reason to stay. 
I am thankful for the staff who were more than willing to take orders from a girl half their age.
I am thankful for the family just a phone call away. 
I am thankful for the patients who chose to be treated by me with all my inadequacies.
I am thankful for the boss for whom I stayed as long as I did.
I am thankful for all that I learnt and achieved in the lives I touched.

I am thankful for my Father who at breaking point made a way out.
I am thankful for the Savior who parted seas to lead me out. 

And I am thankful for the grace that has kept me safe thus far and the grace that will lead me home.


Thursday, January 19, 2012

The battle belongs to the Lord

There are two ways to win a war - make yourself stronger or the enemy weaker.
But when God is the one fighting, he does neither. The lions were still roaring, the fire was still hot as hell, Goliath was still a giant and the Egyptians were still the greatest army on earth.... David was still as big as his arm, Daniel was still meat, the Israelites a bunch of escaped slaves and Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego coagulable proteins...
And God was still God!!
The fire will not harm you, the lions mouth will be shut, the giant will fall before you and the sea will part before you!
For the battle belongs to the Lord!