The end of the year....

31st december 2010..... The end of probably one of the worst years of my life.... Where I was this time last year and where I am now.... When i had everything and when i lost it all.... There isn't any use pitying yourself they say... There isn't any option except to move on.... But move on to what..... I have lost so much this year I'm scared to go to the next.... They say when you hit rock bottom there's nowhere to go but up... But what if next year i discover there is.... That rock bottom can give away beneath your feet and you jus keep fallin fallin fallin..... And yet I thank you Lord for this year... For all the things I don't feel thankful for right now but should be...